Why do bad things happen to the lightest and brightest among us? Why is it that the most beautiful souls are forced to face the very worst things in life? Shouldn't they be exempt? I will not say much on this, except to say that some beautiful, lovely individuals with whom I am so very close are embarking on a very long, long journey, the likes of which have echoes of our journey with Max, as well as my own. This is devastating to me in a way I did not imagine. As I sit here and cry in great racking sobs, I am astounded at the swiftness with which the emotion has overtaken me. I don't wish any portion of what we have been through on anyone and to witness people I love beginning to deal with issues related to health, as well as with issues related to that oh-so-crucial-and-important-organ known as the kidney, I can do nothing but grieve for a moment in time.
I'll be over it soon and then the research will begin; getting advice from our doctors, nutritionists, etc. I want to do whatever I can to ensure they are being taken care of and that their doctors are performing the right tests, etc.
Oh how I wish I did not live so far away, though....
Crying in person would be so much more satisfying and cathartic than alone...
