In the Moment

hello doernbecher....

Tired is the word for this moment.  Resignation is another word.  We will be guests at Doernbecher Children's hospital again tomorrow through Saturday.  Max has a biopsy scheduled for tomorrow, which was supposed to be outpatient.  However, I found out yesterday they are going to admit him overnight.  Joy.

I thought the hospital stays were behind us for what I had hoped to be a very long time.

Not so.  Not so.

Oh and the biopsy is routine. There is nothing wrong.  They do biopsies from time to time in order to ensure there is no hidden rejection going on that isn't showing up in labwork.

I'm so excited about this I could pee my pants.  And see, I can say that and know that everyone understands the voice forever laden with sarcasm is typing everything above.

detox blues

I have a headache the size of Texas right now.  I thought the detox funkies were over, but not so, it seems.  Not so...  And by the way, it kind of grosses me out that my body would be so out of whack.

insanity

I'm wondering just how insane I was to decide to cook or present a different meal to the kids every day for a year.  I'm only thinking about day 5 and I already want to tear out my hair.  Of course, that could have something to do with the fact that Max is rejecting everything I put in front of him except for the homemade crackers and, of course, CHEESE.  Disheartening is the understatment of the year when I apply it to this situation.

Not only do I need to research, develop/adapt a new recipe every day that one of my sons rejects without even trying, but now I'm forced to make a batch of crackers every morning, as well. 

Gah!  But, I'm up to the challenge.  I think.  Remind me I said this when I come crawling back in full whine mode in a couple weeks.

I made it.  I made it through the two day, hellish green smoothie fast.  I will say that I did fall off the wagon yesterday afternoon and ate a small avocado because I thought I was going to freak out if I didn't eat something with some kind of nutritional fat in it.  That's not really falling off the wagon though, is it?

Today I can start eating quinoa, brown rice, lentils, adzuki beans and any other vegetable that's not a nightshade.   All I can say is, thank you god.  Thank you god.

Oh.. and I lost 4.2 lbs.  Yikes.  I was eating healthy to begin with.

oh god... I seriously feel like I am ready to die.  I thought it would be fun to attempt the 28 day elimination diet from Whole Life Nutrition Kitchen, which starts out with a 2 day green smoothie and water fast.  Mind you, I thought it would be fun at 5am yesterday morning, when I realized I had all ingredients on hand to do the 'green smoothie'.  Right now, more than 36 hours later, my head is pounding, my body aches (ACHES) and I want to do nothing more than crawl into bed.

They warn you that you'll feel like this for at least a couple days.  I didn't believe them.

I was wrong.  Dead wrong.  Somebody help me.

heaven

The scent of sauteeing rosemary, sweet onions, garlic and yellow bell peppers is filling my early monday morning, giving my week the most wonderful of starts.  Zucchini and rosemary soup is on tap in an effort to use up gobs of zucchini from the garden.  A quick and hopefully deliciously nutritious soup filled with the best summer has to offer....

How is it that I can put the kids to bed and two hours later, I still haven't eaten dinner?

microblogging on typepad

in an attempt to keep everything in one place, I am trying a little experiment with microblogging on typepad vs. twitter.  Way too many accounts in way too many places, makes for a very scattered faerie momma.